When I think back to everything I’ve been through I feel a sense of pride. I’m proud to be the person I am today. I am compassionate and understanding, I feel love deeply, I’m loyal and I have a lot of time for people in my life.

Yesterday was a strange day. Filled with both happiness and upset. Yesterday was a ‘suck it in and man up’ kind of day. I suppose I got tired of being understanding of people. I got tired of people picking faults with me. I got tired of people not understanding me. I just got tired of it all. Sometimes I think back to everything that I’ve been through and realise that this is nothing major. My life will carry on whether I choose people to be in it or not. That things aren’t a judgment on my character but a question of someone else’s judgment on me. I don’t want negativity in my life or conflict? those things I never want. I will always walk away from that. It is not my loss. Maybe it’s not even a loss but a way to make room for something else?

Yesterday through the upset I felt calm. I felt in control. I felt that someone was listening and they were. Yesterday I understood that there are people in my life who care about me. Make me smile. Make me laugh when I’m upset, understand me and want the best for me and for that I’m very lucky. It was a day full of upset but also peace and happiness, laughter and understanding.

Yesterday made me realise that there are people who want to know me and that want to help me, that make me smile through the pain, that make me feel safe and secure in who I am and what it means. Yesterday was a realisation that sometimes if you want something badly enough the universe always delivers. Mine just came in the form of ice cream and a big smile. For that I am definitely grateful. Always keep moving forwards.

Stevie x